I No Longer Fit

"In life you'll realize that there is a purpose for every person you meet. Some are there to test you, some will use you, some will teach you, and some will bring out the best in you."

~ Unknown

Walk-in-SunOver the last couple of weeks I have spent some time with family. Now I have never really felt close to my family, and as time goes on, I find that feeling becoming more and more obvious. It seems to me like I no longer fit with my family.

Don’t get me wrong. I love my family, and I get along with them fine. But I do notice, as time goes on that I seem to be on a different page then them, as far as life and my attitude toward it goes. I don’t think that it is my family that has changed, I think it is me. As a matter of fact, I am sure that it is me who has changed, because I also find that I no longer fit with my friends, either. I seem to have nothing in common with them.

So what does that mean? Am I destined to spend a good chunk of time alone? Will it take me long to attract people with whom I can relate? Will I continue to change, and find it necessary to continue to bring new people into my life? I don’t know the answers to these questions, but I am sure that things will all turn out for the best for me. They always do…they always will. I have confidence in the Universe. I have confidence in myself. I know that everything is exactly as it is supposed to be.

I have long maintained that it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks of me, so the fact that I don’t fit really doesn’t bother me, especially since it is probably just me that feels this way. I don’t feel that others are judging me, and I am trying not to judge them.

I feel that I have nothing in common with the people in my life. The things that interest them do not interest me. The things they choose to discuss are things that I have decided not to allow into my life, as I feel they are not congruent with the way I think and feel. Subjects like politics, all of the horrible things that are reported by the media, as if these things are the only things happening in our world, and life problems…none of this matters at all to me. As a matter of fact, I avoid most of this on purpose. It really has no room in my life, so I find myself actually trying to avoid the conversations.

Am I in for a lonely time? I don’t know. I don’t think so, but if that is how it ends up, so be it. I am on my path to live a life of personal significance. I find myself living, or at least moving toward the life I intend to live. I am not in this life alone, but I do have a choice about who I share my experience with. I have a choice about what my life involves. I am living well. I am excited about my life. I am excited about what is coming. I know that the rest of my life, with our without my family and friends, will be absolutely fantastic.




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